It’s finally here, it’s your special day! You’re finally 20 now and that’s somehow really difficult for me to process. If you haven’t already noticed how special you are to me and A LOT of other people, I’ll gladly let you know :)
Dear Harry, where do I even begin? Honestly it’ll take me forever to even describe the insane amount of adoration I have for every single aspect of you. Every single day you never cease to amaze me with every little thing you do. You inspire me to become a better person everyday. To have some positivity in my life and just be happy and accept myself for who I am. I know how foolish that sounds considering the fact that you live thousands of miles away from me and we never even met but I think the effect you have on me is incredible and I wouldn’t wanna trade it for anything else. You make me feel so over the moon. So giggly and giddy. Over the past few years, I’ve had to endure and struggle with a lot of problems but you, YOU were ALWAYS, always there. Not physically obviously, but you were somehow there in the same room as me telling me everything’s going to be alright and I should stop crying and being afraid and stop being such a sap. I can never ever thank you enough for all the things you’ve done for me in my life. You make me, ME. In fact, a BETTER version of me. You’ve made me somehow stronger and slowly I’m starting to accept myself for who I am. You’ve turned my frown upside down and wiped my tears away when no one was there. (well shit, i sound like a cheesy ol sap) But really, I can never thank you enough I just honestly cant- it’s impossible. You’ve done so much for me and I just wanna be able to tell you personally and look at the smile upon your pretty face.
You are amazing, incredible, wonderful, admirable, loving, caring, genuine, respectful and every other positive adjective that could ever exist in this world. You treat and love everyone so equally; even strangers. Your heart is made of gold, your witty sense of humour makes me smile, your personality makes my heart shrivel with more infatuation. My love for you skyrockets everyday and I honestly never knew that was possible.
I’m going to cut this short before I go on and on but I just wanted to let you know that YOU are the reason I can get through every single moment of my life so easily; like a breeze, almost. Sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming, with all this love I feel for every inch of you but I can never stop and I will never stop. I am so sosososososo undeniably beyond grateful for your mere existence and the ability that you have to save SO many lives without you knowing. I think that’s lovely. You’re so so lovely, H. I love you for YOU with every ounce of my being and please never ever change. Not even one bit. I hope you’re always happy. You’re always smiling. Like you always make me feel like I can do anything, like I’m on top of the world. I hope you never brush that smile off your face. You deserve every single ounce of happiness. You literally radiate happiness and positivity. You deserve everything good in this world and MORE and I wish nothing more than to give you all of it. If I were to have one ability in life, it’s the ability to make you see yourself through my eyes so you could see how much of an incredible person you are.
Gosh that was sappy as hell ok but I hope you enjoy being 20 and make the most out of it and just be happy always it’ll make me a million times happier. I am so beyond lucky to be alive in this world at the same time as you. I’m so excited for years to come just so I could live off by looking at the smile upon your face. Your happiness matters to me and if I could, I would in a heartbeat, give you everything good in this world and take away all your sadness and hurt just to see you smile all the time, even if it means sacrificing my own happiness. Happy birthday once again to the love of my life, my rock, my one and only source of positivity in life and the reason I’m holding onto myself very firmly.
Lots of love,
Nadiah :D .xx
HERE’S TO MY FAVOURITE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD TURNING 20 AND HOLY SHIT THIS WAS LONG SORRY BYE
— Jeffrey McDaniel
I like to write and occasionally I will post some of my writings & stuff from time to time. Though I have to warn you, they’re all suckish. I do try my best…
The sky. A shade of purple, with a tinge of dark blue amidst the violet clouds.
Stars. All scattered amongst the thick cloud in the vast expanse of loneliness.
To look for a star of your own, quite impossible isn’t it?
Considering the fact; there are thousands, millions- in fact, of stars lining up the sky.
Shining bright like a polished diamond.
A hint of unknown colour making its way through them.
White? Yellow? Blue?
I have yet to discover.
Each of them trying hard to get your undivided attention.
As if begging attentively.
Pleading desperately to tell you “I am your star.”
Even stars can be possessive.
It can be macabre, even.
The only light guiding you; the stars and the moon.
Of course, the moon.
When I was little, often I was told to look for a certain particular shadow engraved on the moon.
I thought it was impossible.
But as I grew up, I find myself still looking for it.
Lurking around to see for any signs of a darker shade on the bright coloured moon.
"Look for a shadow of a tree; illuminated. It’s always there."
I’ve never been in sight of one until now. But quite funnily, I believe in it.
Not only the sky.
You can actually feel darkness consuming you.
Surrounding you when you’re alone.
With your own mind, body and spirit.
Not a single soul around you.
That is when you feel darkness creeping.
Revolving around you.
Like the Earth revolving around the Sun.
Everyday. Without fail.
To no avail.
And you can’t seem to push it away.
Dark thoughts suffocating you.
Trying to find a way out of the mess- the monstrous maze you have created yourself.
Clouding your head.
Invading your little piece of mind.
Not even a spot of light can be seen now.
Making it much more difficult for it to find a way out.
You have no other choice but to embrace it.
Embrace the menacing darkness.
Deep down inside your head.
Knowing it will never go away.
And all your efforts go to waste.
As though they die in vain.